It's not all black and white. How can you appreciate the world around you if all you can see is race? The world is made up with plenty of other colors, sounds, tastes, and textures. So see the whole spectrum, listen to the songs of others, get that bad taste out of your mouth, and feel something other than your own spite for once.

Shout out to the one person in Poland and one person in Brazil who's read This.

Wonderland pt 1

The door opens and I go in.
My whole world is turned upside down.
The furniture is above me and I’m standing on the ceiling.
My time is running out.
I begin to run; run toward anything familiar.
An opening in the wall I enter.
I find myself in a forest where curious plants reside.
I’m frightened.
Running, running, running.
I don’t know my way.
A smiling cat stops me in my path.
He flashes his fangs at me and hisses,
"Why do you run?"
I cannot reply.
This terrifying creature before me has taken my breath away.
His smile covers from ear to ear.
“WHY do you run little girl?”
I try to spit out an answer, but no words are freed from my lips.
He vanishes, but his laughter is echoing all around me.
I begin to run.
Strange trees fly past me.
A sign that reads “Don’t step on the Mome Raths.”
Running, running, running.
I come upon a house.
A booming voice enters my ears.
"WELCOME TO MY TEA PARTY."
A madman stands before me.
His hair like fire and his hat taller than I am.
"YOU’RE LATE."
Astonished, I cannot move.
I can’t breathe.
Everything goes black.
Darkness encompasses me.
I being to walk.
I think I’m walking.
Toward a light.
I come upon a clearing.
It’s another forest.
No.
It’s a meadow.
Everything is just so much larger than I.
Curious.
I begin to walk through this meadow.
A sickly sweet smell fills my nose.
Singing?
Do I hear singing?
I come across a caterpillar.
He’s exotic and beautiful.
He sings a rhyme about a crocodile.
I stand and listen until he suddenly stops.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE CHILD?"
I try to tell him that I’m lost.
The words won’t come out.
His voice becomes fierce and angry.
"WHAT. ARE. YOU. DOING. HERE. CHILD?"
I begin to cry.
It hurts.
I croak out, “I don’t know!”
I begin to run again.
He calls after me..
I think he says, “You’re calling the smiling cat!”
Everything’s mad here.
No time to stop.
My time is running out.
Why AM I here?
Running blindly through dense vegetation.
SNAP.
Oh no.
I’m falling.
SMACK.
I hit hard ground.
I’m in a hole.
Dammit.
He said, “You’re falling into her trap!”
But maybe I can call the smiling cat.
I whisper, “Please, wherever you are, help me out of here.”
He materializes.
Fangs sharp and smiling ear to ear.
He begins to cackle.
Hisses, “You can only help yourself out of here little girl.”
Vanishes.
His laughter.
Angry and evil.

Emotions

I push and scream and cry.

Will you leave?

It's all a test to see if you'll tire of me.

I'm hard to live with and hard to love,

I make you feel as if everything's your fault. 

I've gotten so angry and sad from being let down,

I assume one day you'll just walk out.

Fed up and pissed with the girl you love.

Until one day you'll realize that you're done.

Done with trying to make me happy. 

Done with being there when I fall.

Done with me, with us, with it all. 

I'm sorry I'm this way, you deserve so much better.

Honestly I love you more than any other.

Can you forgive me again, please, just one more time?

I'm sorry I did this, I'm sorry I lied.

I'll understand if you want to leave,

I'll understand that you tried,

To love a girl who's cold, who's broken and can't be revived. 

Kiss

Your kiss takes the very best of me

If I could I'd linger in your arms forever

The love that pours from such a simple gesture

Makes me believe 

Mine

The love you give me is worth everything.

I'd give up my life just as long as you stay.

Your beauty blows my mind and my heart away.

Because daughter, you're mine and I am yours. 

Always.