Finished

The words that you speak to me tonight will remain forever and always. This dark strange poison, that you send creeping every time you stop to think of me cuts so very deep. The truths that ebb and flow with time cannot be repeated for the dark fate we live makes it so. The past will stay and the future is unknown, so look towards the future and forget the past because today is new and yesterday is gone.

Leave. Just leave. Leave it all behind, for the torture you make us endure contemplating what cannot be is neither constructive nor uplifting. The memories you persistently tell me of torture me,  and there is nothing I can do except wait for the pain to ease. That is not love. That is not love. Love is uplifting and kind, it never varies and never leaves. It never forces and will not torment. It is beautiful and warm, consistent and true.

And yes, there was a time when I loved you. But time is a funny thing. Time flows without thought and without emotion, without a glance to the past.  We as humans are the ones that make time worth our lives and we as humans are the ones who lets it pass us by. I gave you my heart and my soul once upon a time. You were just in another place once upon a time. Now we have to live and breath and kiss and love not one another but two others. Two people that are willing to give their hearts and souls. Two people that will love tried and true. Two people that no matter the pain we cause from reminiscing of the time we had together will remain because love is a choice and they chose us. Time is short but love is forever when it truly means something. Something that apparently I didn't mean to you once upon a time.

The memories of holding eachother and kissing eachother and me loving you do not outweigh nor erase the memories and the feelings of the pain I felt. The tears I cried. The hours I spent wondering what I did wrong. The days of believing I wasn't good enough. The years of wondering if you truly ever loved me the way you said you did. The trust I gave broken into pieces. The love I gave you thrown back into my face. The pain I am blamed for because all I wanted was to love you. The fact that you left me for another and still do. The memory of everything going so well then, one day, it all just ended.

Now that I am trying to live my time with someone who loves me, you return with words of love and apology, and nostalgia. Yet, you never changed. You will forever choose another before me. Yourself.

Stars

Tell me you love me, whisper you miss me. Bring to me feelings of wonderful memories.  You don't deserve me and I don't deserve you. The pain that we feel is what is true. I can't replace you and I can't forgive you so now there is nothing that I can do. Nothing but wait for the pain to subside and nothing but wait to accept you're not mine. I hate that I love you but I love that you're there. No matter what I do I know you still care. Every time I see you my heart is on fire but every time I see you I can't help but feel like a liar. So what can I do now what can I say? Other than I love you and I must go away. Because a love like ours will never fade, but I've made my choice and with that I will stay.

Game

This world of ours is only in our minds. A projection of what we wish it to be. The feelings are true but reality is a lie. In order to live we must beat the game. The game that tests our grasp to what is real and what is not. The game that tests our strengths and our weaknesses. The game that will consume us or set us free. This life is only a game that one day ends. Will you play it with me?

Space

We stayed out all night and watched the stars and talked about the universe. About how small we really are but how extensive our minds can be. It's amazing to know that in this life people can come together and know that no matter what happens there is something bigger out there for us. Who knows the places we will go but as long as we have each other it doesn't matter. We live under the same sky and in our hearts we'll always be. We will find each other again one day, even if that's after we perish. Death only parts us for a short time and I will wait for you to find me again. Until the end of time.

Soulmates

Soul mates are so much more than lovers you see. Together forever, best friends, always you and me. Understanding each other like no one else can. Forgiving each other, even when we think we can't. But heed my warning, dear friend of mine, that soulmates together may come upon testing times. True love never fails but feelings are confusing. Sometimes it's better to lie, than to admit that we are drowning. No matter what, I'll always be here, but what's best for us may cause doubting. I'll hurt you and you'll hurt me, but know this truth, in the end, true love is always free.